Major Dilemma

I used to go to university back in 2019. I left after only two weeks. Now I’m ready to go back, but I have a dilemma, a major dilemma (pun intended).

I used to go to university back in 2019. I left after only two weeks. Now I’m ready to go back, but I have a dilemma, a major dilemma (pun intended).

The reason I left school in the first place wasn’t because I’m lazy or don’t want to learn. It’s the exact opposite actually. There was to much I wanted to do and wanted to be, I just couldn’t choose. Not only that, but I felt as if I had no control, as if I was just another student of thousands, who would go to school to earn a degree and slave away for the rest of my life at an office desk. The teacher or professor would be lecturing the class while I doodled in my notebook and let my mind drift off as I stared out the window, imagining a golden valley behind those distant green hills. After leaving school, I found that valley. I live here now, and that valley is Phoenix. But I’m ready for more responsibility.

I can’t just work at the theater for the rest of my life. I love it, I love the people and I love movies, but there must be more. I’m enrolled into school now and must pick a major… what will it be? I could choose entrepreneurship and start my own business, or go with marketing which is a bit safer and eventually make a business of my own that way, or I could choose sociology. Now I’m looking back into journalism, as I just have this need to write, and if I could combine that with the stories of everyone and everything around me, that must be great right?

There are so many paths I could take, but I can only choose one. At least if I choose journalism, I can live a life as a writer in New York City, or potentially be a photographer, or photojournalist (the most likely outcome). As a journalist, I would be able to live in the Big Apple and have enough time for a family, and I would be able to travel a lot, something important to me. I would be able to let my creativity flow and I’d get to meet all these different people. Everyone has a story, and as much as I want to tell mine, there are so many people out there waiting to tell theirs, and I could help them tell them.

Hero with a Thousand Faces

Everyone has a hero. Whether that’s someone in your family, a popular celebrity, or even a movie icon, we all have someone we look up to and aspire to be. I have a hero, and that person is me… well, my future self at least.

Everyone has a hero. Whether that’s someone in your family, a popular celebrity, or even a movie icon, we all have someone we look up to and aspire to be. I have a hero, and that person is me… well, my future self at least.

Now that may seem narcissistic or egotistical, I mean maybe it is. What I mean by being my own hero is that I want to be the best possible version of myself. I can improve in any and every aspect imaginable, so I’m not perfect. No one is. But that best possible version of me, let’s say he lives 5-10 years from now, he lives in New York. He has a wife and a kid, with a successful business that allows him to travel the world freely. Most of all, he inspires people because his energy is unstoppable.

That’s not me, at least not yet. I have so many opportunities right now to better myself, and I just took one step towards that future. I told myself I would never go back to college because I didn’t want to conform. I was wrong, I didn’t have to conform to be in college, I just needed a clearer career option. I’m choosing entrepreneurship. Although unsafe, this degree could help me start my own company, allowing me to take charge of my own destiny, free from any office job or managers yelling at me to get paperwork done. Now I’m still not sure what my business will be based around exactly, but I do have some ideas, maybe I’ll discuss all of that in the next post.

My point is, you should be your own hero. You should want to be no one else but yourself, and your best possible self at that. But it’s going to take work. Your best possible self is waiting for you in the future, you just need to take ahold of your destiny. I hope to have lived my hero’s journey one day.